Taking personal responsibility…and potty talk

I have been asked on numerous accounts why I am doing the candida diet. The number one (and probably ONLY reason) I started the candida diet is because (I’m going to get REALLY honest with you right now…) I have had digestive issues since college…

My senior year of college, shit hit the fan in my life (family, school, relationship,friendships, not knowing what I wanted to do with my life, etc, etc…you know, the normal stuff!) and my poor body could only handle the stress I was going through by deciding to seize all function of my digestive system. I was in and out of specialists for a year (my lowest low was having an “examination” (digestive system…take a gander at where that exam was taken…) by a 70 year old man…lowwww low). I was drugged up, knocked out, and had the pleasure (*puke*) of experiencing my first ever colonoscopy at the ripe age of 22. The final diagnosis was IBS (irritable bowel syndrome). What’s a girl to do with that information??!   I was terrified to eat ANYTHING; I was constantly full of fear. It got to a bad point where I was only eating about 500 calories a day (not on purpose…just because everything was making me sick!). That 500 calories usually came in the form of a Smart One (the broccoli and cheddar potatoes :-p).

I was CONSTANTLY on the lookout for some MAGIC PILL that would get rid of my digestive issues.

*In walks Nicholas Araza*

Through Nick I learned all about the Paleo diet, and it completely changed my world. I started exercising…uh duh, I think we know how that affected my world. I started getting adjusted. All three of these things have COMPLETELY changed my world for the better…including my digestive issues. I no longer FEAR eating (I am actually quite OBSESSED with it, thank you!) and I haven’t had an “episode” in a couple years. Phew! 🙂

So why the candida diet… well…while my guts are much happier, they are not 100% better. I have messed up my guts for the majority of my life…and while changing my diet, exercising and getting adjusted has stopped it from getting worse I’m sure…I have lost a LOT of integrity of my gut lining. In laymen’s terms: my guts are screwed. Presently :-p I was hoping that the candida diet would clean up the last of those bad bugs because since adding exercise to my life, my bad guts have posed a WHOLE other kind of problem…

If I, or anyone, is unable to keep their abs tight while doing Crossfit…you are essentially efffffffffffffed. There is WEIGHT you’re lifting, weird positions you’re getting into, high repetition of exercises, BURPEES, full extension of exercises…etc, etc. If you are unable to protect your spine during these exercises, you are GOING to get hurt…period. WELL…unfortunately, when you have inflamed guts due to something you ate, or bad bugs that are taking over your guts…you cannot properly protect your spine, and you get yourself in the predicament I have been putting myself in for the last year and a half…which is constantly hurting myself, over and over again. 

back pain

Here’s where some venting comes in: people constantly ASSUME that since I am married to a chiropractor I don’t EVER have back pain, that I have a BEAUTIFUL spine, and la da da…well, not exactly. I met Nick in 2009, and I was diagnosed with a Phase 1 subluxation…borderline phase 2. My spine was as straight as a rod…and I have a congenital scoliosis in my mid-back. Not the “ideal chiropractor’s wife spine”…sorry to disappoint. We have made AMAZING changes so far (I literally started crying when I saw my most recent progress x-rays, I was so happy)…but as magical as my husband (or ANY chiropractor for that matter) is…he’s not a magician…and in order for him to do his job the best he can, I NEED to stop hurting myself!!!! Which in short means (because after many, many discussions, we both believe is mainly related to my irritated guts)…I need to stop messing up my guts, and I need to KEEP working on PERFECTING my form in the gym (and in life for that matter!).

I started the candida diet on June 25th, and then decided to have some homemade coconut ice cream this past Saturday (that would be TOTALLY okay if I were not doing the candida) that was topped with homemade whipped cream (this would NOT be okay even if I WASN’T doing the candida) and let me tell you…that whipped cream EFFED me. I have been feeling it since Saturday. Yesterday was a workout with burpees and pull-ups (my two biggest offenders)…so last night I was laying in bed, complaining and whimpering because my back was in so much pain. I’m frustrated. I feel like I should be stronger, I feel like I should be able to go faster, I feel like I should be able to do MORE reps; it’s hard to do that when you start progressing, then jack yourself, you know?

Let me tell you THIS much…I am SO grateful that I AM married to a chiropractor…I can’t imagine doing this, and learning this journey without my sweet, sweet husband to clean up after me. Tip, however: do not use your chiropractor as a custodian for your injuries and then wonder why you’re not getting the results you want. Clean up your own messes, prevent messes, and do what your chiropractor says! 🙂

Anyway, the point of this post was a vent, mostly. I needed to be honest and “out” myself…I DON’T, yet, have a perfect spine…I don’t, yet, do the movements perfectly…and I still hurt myself…kind of often :-\ I, too, am working on my health everyday. I, too, am on this journey with you.

With love,

Jen

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13 thoughts on “Taking personal responsibility…and potty talk

  1. Amanda says:

    Oh love I totes get this post…..I def have issues with my spine too after multiple car accidents and fractures in my neck. Stress over the last two years as well. It’s amazing to me how the whole body is connected. I decided to treat myself last week during the 4th and ate ice cream/ frozen yogurt/ and had some *Gasp* gluten. Well go figure this week I can’t hardly move my neck and I can literally feel all my old injury’s in my body and joints. (Tailbone anyone?) Dr. Paul has been my life saver but I agree I can’t count on him to clean up my messes either. Love you and totally stoked for us to live near each other and push each other to new goals and heights on this journey of health/body domination! xoxoxo
    Manders

  2. beautifullystrong says:

    It’s so good to hear these things. I feel like no one TALKS about this stuff…I literally feel, sometimes, like I’m the only one who is injured or in pain. It’s great to hear (although it sucks for you, I’m sorry! haha) sometimes that I’m not alone in this. I’m stoked to live near you and do life with you as well 🙂 Get out here! 🙂

  3. sammyd says:

    i LOVE THIS POST! And I love you Jen! You should definitely never feel like you are the only one in pain… one of the things I love best about you is that you DO talk about this stuff.. I mean who admits to crying about their progress from an xray?? Frustrated and in pain after a wod?? Most people just shelve that away or slam the door as they leave, but you give us thoughtful and inspirational posts! Love you so much, you give the rest of us so much to work towards and dream about.

  4. Alexis Girvan says:

    … SO true love – SO glad you are putting this out there. Our little digestive tracts hold our second brain! Literally! So WHY THE HECK does no one ever talk about it! – My brain, my workouts and my entire outlook on life are all different when my tummy is functioning the way it’s supposed to. Consequently, when they AREN’T, all of life is just colored differently. Sometimes I’ll literally be at the gym and watching some body doing an incredible little circuit and think … “I wonder if that guy just had a great tummy move (which is my little girl way of saying a great BM)”. Gross. But SO real, right? Eating clean and saying adjusted and SLEEPING (ooooo sleeping, so huge) all play such roles in it – but RECOGNITION of it all is where it all starts! Hence, talking about it key. And I”m so glad you are doing so 🙂 Here’s to LOTS of these converstions … in person… at the beach!? … sooooon!!!!! Love you

    • beautifullystrong says:

      wowsers, thank you ladies for the awesome comments. It is SO true Lex that the world is colored completely different when not functioning properly. We want to be free flowing streams, not stagnant ponds. Which one is prettier to be around? :-p PS, I like your cute girly way of saying that 🙂 Samster, I love you to pieces like whoa. You are such a beautiful, beautiful friend, as are you Lex, and I am SOOOOOOO grateful to have such amazing, inspiring, grateful, loving friends in my life 🙂 xoxoxoxo

  5. Patricia Elliott says:

    Amazing article explaining what I’d never connected before. I, too, have always had the tummy, weak back, even when I weighed 102. I’ve been making the nutrition and emotional instability connection (I suspect). But not the spine and gut problems. Makes total sense.

  6. Mary Toothman says:

    Jen, how many times have you heard me say, since I started getting adjusted by Nick and working out at the gym, that my #1 goal is to NOT hurt myself? You are definitely not alone. And you totally kick ass.

  7. Julissa says:

    Just curious… Did you use Organic Pasture’s “Raw” cream to make the whipped topping for the ice cream or ? I only ask, because I thought good quality raw cream actually has a lot of good naturally occuring bacteria in it that makes it more tolerable for your gut in small doses. Btw, I really appreciate your honesty. Thanks for sharing your frustrations about not being able to advance b/c of your back pain:( I can relate big time. Just don’t forget to embrace where you are at in your health journey now! It’s AMAZING how far you’ve come & how many people you have inspired along the way 🙂

    • beautifullystrong says:

      Thank you Julissa. As for the raw cream…some people can definitely handle raw cream/milk over others…I just am not one of those people. Pasteurized milk definitely hurts me WAY more…but I still can’t do raw milk/cream either…bummer…trust me I’ve tried 🙂 I don’t normally eat whipped cream at all…but I did twice in one week in the last few weeks…not a great choice on my part 🙂

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